Start over syndrome

It's the end of 2010, the most productive year for me it's seems. Lots of changes- too numerous to talk about individually. One cannot forget, however, the nothing less than miraculous re-engagement I was blessed to receive with my employment- after taking a spontaneous 4 month holiday!

So being surrounded, once again, by social workers I realise it's a whole different world. Being part of said world certainly doesn't mean one knows all the 'lingo' (but that's because it wouldn't surprise me if half of it is made up by each individual worker, and if you pieced it all together you would get a whole new language- a language consisting of mental history and public policy at least. Quite appropriate for most of current western society).

The phrase 'start over syndrome' popped up today, and it would be selfish to withhold it from those who don't have the pleasure to indulge in this rigmarole daily. It's used to identify a child who is unable to achieve a-step-up-the-ladder because of a failure by services to communicate and therefore never gain any significant ground and change.

Its not all as meaningless as I make out as you can tell- forgive me for giving an unsympathetic air. But it all reminded me about the phrase 'new years resolution' and it struck me that a 'Fresh start' seems to be the tag line to every new so-called positive venture and yet I wonder if thats what mr & mrs average need.

What I need is to do is climb that hill I see everyday when I open my blinds in the office at work. It's not new, but I'm pretty sure I've not experienced everything about it just by seeing it and enjoying it's beauty. It's definitely got be experienced before it's visual beauty just becomes a bit bla and i forget it had any majesty in the first place. So that's what I'm going to do this weekend. Skip church. Skip responsibilities. Enjoy my hill.

And then, once doing that, I'm going to go to Scotland and ill find a bigger hill. That will cover both Christmas and New years day. Wonderful.